Dear Joey, 4 years today and I still can’t believe it. It feels like just yesterday we were getting out of and/or ditching class.. mobbin’ around the neighborhood with the KR3W causing havoc, hanging out at my house blowin’, or going to Pepe’s for some grub. These memories they feel so real to me still. I couldn’t forget them if I tried. I can remember the first time I met you. We were outside of Ana’s house, KR3W and all :), and I was waiting for everyone to finish their cigs. You strolled up with Payton & waited with me. I remember your outfit so clearly. You still had long hair, white tee, black track jacket, some dark denim jeans, and your were fucking around with someones bike. That was the first time I met you & after that it was a wrap. You & Payton were always over, hanging out at my house with the rest of our group. It always ended up us 3 though, always. Remember when you and Payton came over after jacking alch from the Bashas? And we were trying soooo hard to let the parents have me stay the night or you stay at paytons? Hahaha fuck those were the days. Pepe’s was like the daily meeting place. Always met at Pepe’s. Fuck there are so many memories in this neighborhood. I can’t escape any of it today & it’s so tough. I just would love to see your smile one more time. Whenever you were around you just gave off this presence that just made you feel so good that you had to smile. I don’t know what that is till this day but that’s something I love so much about you. You just have this light, this light that never goes out. I know I shouldn’t cry for you and I really try not to. I really do. It’s just hard without you. It’s hard to think of how life right now could be. To think of where you could be, what you’d be accomplishing, and what daring ventures you’d be having… these things that I want you to be here so badly for. You know, this is my first year being alone the passed 2 days. I’ve always had someone who I could relate to. Payton is living up in Flagstaff with Will. Kaite lives in LA and probably wants absolutely nothing to do with me. Tom, I don’t even know what he could possibly be doing. It hurts.. to think how we all used to be, to know we could go running to one another. Things change as time goes on, I know, and sometimes people grow apart. I just wish that we could all hear from one another, especially today. I heard from Payton but I’m still iffy about my first move on talking to Kaite… it could go good or just no response at this point. I know you’re having the time of your life, wherever you are. Hope you’re having plenty of fun for all of us. We miss you and love you more then these mere words could ever express. Please keep looking out for us. Keep shining that beautiful light so we can keep moving on this path of ours… we still need it. I know it’s not anytime soon but I can’t wait to see you again. My chin stays up because I know you’re never too far from me :]. I love you so much. I miss you always. Until we meet again my friend.. xoxox Tigs